“Letter to Blueberry” : a Story’s Conclusion
Love, heartbreak, and growth: experiences that come with the package of life. Singer-songwriter Brye Sebring, professionally known simply as Brye, understands this all too well. Her first official album, Dream Girl, was released on June 17, 2022. Songs in general can be observed as letters. Whether they’re directed to a specific person, subject, or even to the songwriter themself, someone or something is being addressed. The contents of Brye’s album are no exception. Her last song is explicitly presented as a letter addressed to a past partner. “Letter to Blueberry” acts as the conclusion to her story of romantic relationships and deteriorating mental health told through her album, Dream Girl. It effectively utilizes the epistolary format in showing emotional growth as well as providing mental closure, both for herself and Blueberry.
As mentioned, the two main aspects of Brye’s album involve romantic relationships and mental health. Opening the album is “Dream Girl,” which expresses her subtle desire to be the dream girl, someone more dateable and manageable than she actually is. It’s implied that she was either in a relationship or wished to be during the time period this song takes place. She addresses this song to whomever she was romantically involved with asking, “Would you like me more if I lived spontaneously?” (Sebring, 2022). By directing her lyrics to a person, she opens her album using epistolary tactics. “Black and White,” the next song, describes her mental state as always being amazing or awful, never in between, or “gray” (Sebring, 2022). Next is a song that covers her continued attachment to an individual from a past, toxic relationship. It is her obsession with a person who had consistently mistreated her that causes her to feel so much anger and frustration. This experience makes her feel “Everything at Once,” the title of this song. The next, “Rebuilding,” then goes on to tell of Brye’s infatuation with a new individual. She sees this person as someone who can help rebuild her after the previous toxic relationship. A question Brye asks this individual reads, “Would [your lovers] write you a million songs?” which references her first released song, “Million Songs.” Though it is not a part of the album, this was a true love song about the same person mentioned in “Rebuilding.” However, the abundance of questions within “Rebuilding” makes uncertainty apparent. It’s hinted that this person is in no way meant to save her in the way she wishes and that this relationship will not be her ideal one. The next song, “Shapeshifter,” further proves this with darker musical tones and lyrics. This is a continuation of the story described in “Rebuilding,” as its pre-chorus states, “I build you up, you tear me down” (Sebring, 2022). Finally, the album’s sixth song, “I’d Rather Be Alone,” expresses Brye’s desire to end this relationship. The song presents a somewhat carefree tone, one that contrasts with the previous, “Shapeshifter.” Despite its carefree musicality, the lyrics describe a spiraling relationship with constant fighting and miscommunication. This shows that Brye is now beginning to emotionally shut down. She wishes to no longer be in any romantic relationship, or rather, that she’d “rather be alone.” Next is “Apocalypse.” Here, her mental health is at its absolute lowest. She even goes as far as to describe having suicidal thoughts, “I’m able to push through for one night more / But suicide is creeping up on my back door” (Sebring, 2022). Both the burden of her past relationships and the effects of COVID-19 quarantining are contributors to the state, as “the virus” is referenced multiple times throughout the song (Sebring, 2022).
Now, we are finally brought to “Letter to Blueberry,” Brye’s last song in her album. It was the first song from the album to be released as a single, in October 2020. Overall, the song reflects back on what is implied to be her first true relationship. In the last line she sings, “Thank you for being my first everything” (Sebring, 2020). Since it is at the end of the album, the letter shows that she is now speaking from a grown point of view, one that has gained emotional maturity and is able to properly reflect on her past relationships. In this case, she is specifically reflecting on her mistakes in a relationship with a good partner. Letters and journaling act as an outlet for emotional healing. Brye reveals that she is writing this letter in “the journal [she] wrote when [they’d] date” (Sebring, 2020). By revisiting this record of her past, she is healing through reflection. Physically writing a letter in this journal shows her striving for acceptance of the past. Halfway through the album, she had been attempting to emotionally recover by dating other people, as mentioned earlier with “Rebuilding.” However, the website QueeringPsychology, created by a professional psychotherapist and mental health counselor, explains, “[T]hat would be an example of avoidance. And avoidance almost always makes things worse.” The page continues, “The feelings you try to push away will always come back in some way, usually stronger. Unhandled emotions and psychological unfinished business can come out in your body so you might start to feel achy, sick or drained all the time” (Pierre, 2019). As it was previously covered, Brye had encountered just this especially during “I’d Rather Be Alone,” when she’d become emotionally drained from her experiences. In “Letter to Blueberry,” despite romantic feelings still subtly existing, there is no intention of pursuing a romantic relationship. This symbolizes her wanting to properly communicate her regrets and feelings. A Psychology Today page titled “After the break-up: Embracing the lessons” says to ask yourself these questions in order to healthily reflect upon an ended relationship: “What red flags did you ignore? What drama did you create? What dysfunction did you feed into?” (Davis, 2015). Brye does just this within her song lyrics saying, “I get that I’ve created somе scars / With the words I spoke and with my guitar,” and, “I don’t fully know why we fell out / But I think it had to do with my mouth / I couldn’t keep it shut and shut down / You had every right leave me.” She fully accepts her faults within the relationship. By formatting this piece as a letter, Brye was able to explicitly address Blueberry. As well, she was able to provide more genuine closure. Toward the end of the song, the lyrics read, “I hope this song can bring you some peace / Cause my other ones were not quite so sweet” (Sebring, 2020).
After years of struggle, heartache, and depression, Brye finally found a satisfying conclusion to one part of her story. It did not end with a happy relationship, but with contentment and maturity. Brye accepts that not being in romantic relationships is a time to truly heal and grow. Instead of searching for a savior in others, she will embrace independence, which begins by accepting past experiences. This story ends with her found way of closure in the form of a letter, “Letter to Blueberry.”
Works Cited
Sebring, B. (2022). Dream Girl. Retrieved from https://open.spotify.com/album/1d3os2x0L52pyezqlC0lpj?si=wFaU5z7PTh6k_2zG3yVmjA
Sebring, B. (2020). Letter to Blueberry. Dream Girl. Retrieved from https://open.spotify.com/track/6zZ7VZFvZS9655byEp4L16?si=c90055f0ec404d0d
Sebring, B. (2019). Million Songs. Retrieved from https://open.spotify.com/track/1BRNaNLX4ghJSAw0OpC73v?si=c429fcda55e141ab
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